What is lifetime? why do we come here? i bought a book with one of the theories.... and i would like to tell about this theory... Well, it's quite simple: Life is a Game... and we come to the world to help each other get rid of the sins we made in other lifes... just a new theory, so don't judge... It also states that we idealize a lot of things... which causes all of out problems... and the problems are the words of life on how shouldn't we idolize something... They say that kids come to distroy each others idealizations and people meet to do the same thing... we can dream, we ca fight for what we want, but we shouldn't think that we won't survive without it...
maybe a bullshit... maybe not... just another line between all those written...
If this is true... than i understood a lot... like all my Idealistic ideas... and my parents... their divorce... and living with my step-dad... better than nothing, i guess, but there is my life too...
My mom was talking about me and my brother to one of her friends, and it wasn't a good idea, she didn't know i can hear... and i got a bit sad, but now i'm okay, i guess...
Other thing: i said no to the guitar... because i think that my parents won't ever say any good about the idea... and i won't be inspired because my family wold never appreciate what i do...
I saw so many people today... and i saw them smiling, but having their own issues... but they smile... one of my friends once quoted someone: They smile largest when it hurts them most... is it true... some of us do... but others just show their emotions... and think it's all okay...
About the fridges: my mom said: why is it so important for you to have someone... and i said: to feel that i'm alive and breathing i guess, like to feel that i'm still a human, but not the fridge, but no, even our fridge has a mate: i pointed on a white one... lol