Good everning, Diary...
Today was a day, that made me feel sad again... i don't know what is wrong with life or me, but when i feel good sme shit happens... or is about to happen... I can't run away from it, all i can do is face it... so i get stronger... we all want to believe that we are... today, we had a lunch with my mom, and she said something that made me feel myself as if i was a robot... not a pleasent feeling, trust me... and i was walking back, with my hurt finger... to the house in the cold winter night... but it didn't hurt as much as something on the inside... had so many feelings, and didn't know or want to tell them... felt turn apart by the ravens... is it really my choice to be like that? i wouldn't thinkl so, but there is my fault... to get rid of this mood i was smiling, fake smiling... until i just gave up, and sang... sang how i could, outloud... with feelings that were in me... maybe i'm turning crazy, but all i want to be right now is to be alive... to be a person, something important, someone who will be an example for others... but i just try, i try to do my best, but my moralities get broken... all i need is some real love... i want the warm feeling people say they have when they love... heh...
<3 Ko