Well, i have some crap going on, it's gonna be over soon... i feel it... going to be over for good... i want it to work out this way... i hope my mind is powerful enough along with other minds to fight... otherwise i might fall too deep... so i'll bleed to death... watching how the bird of life opens it's wings flying away through my veins... i heard how the glass broke down behind me... was it my hope? no it wasn't. my hope won't break... just me...
i want to start it over, i want to start it over... and over again... that's why i think of suicide more often... i want to start it over... i'm smiling, but it hurts, cuz i have the reason not to smile... i smile the best when i'm hurt the most, when i'm worried... when i actually care... i smile, i laugh, this is how they taught us to live, but what is the point of it? they never told us... maybe it makes it easier, i wanted to believe in it...
I used to say: just smile... now i need someone to say it to me, because i need to be strong... and i need someone to be there for me... please hold my hand, will you, i want to ask random people... but it's just dumb... isn't it?
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