i've started living in it, maybe late for a 18 year old guy to start it now, but i did... evenings going out with friends and hang out until 4 am... then come back home and can't open the door for a few moments but when i do, i hear the dog barking - woke up everyone... but it's okay... i just go to my room, and do whatever else and then go to sleep, to wake up around 1 pm in the afternoon...
Why do i do it? i don't know. Do I like it? I don't know... i really don't, i think it's the way for me not to have fun, but to forget the day, to mess it up with the color of night... to forget all my problems, to forget all my consernes... and maybe to forget myself... to be a different person for a while, to be normal... to talk about normal topics, and to have normal problems... Escape, sounds unpatriotic and miserable, but probably this is what i seek for. or maybe i just want to live normal life once in a while, and look into future with different perspectives and views....
The girl still didn't say anything... we don't even talk... i miss talking to her... went online in some chat room... i was depressed, wanted to talk to strangers... and a stranger pulled the story about her out of me, so guess what he said: Girls like when you're rude and act like a jerk... It shows them that you're a man. Do they actually like it though?! there are so many different ways to show to show that you're man, why do they choose this one... and if the person is different and he acts like a jerk, what then... first lie... right... just don't understand it, i really saw it, how they prefer dating jocks from the football team, who often doesn't give a shit... and they just leave the guys who truly(?) loves them... at least who cares for them... most girls will just say that they should be friends and date a jock for reputation, how stupid is that? they will date a jock even if they like this one guy with all their heart... don't understand... why does a queen of the evening has to have a king who's a captain of the football team?! don't know, don't get it, so live night life to discover all of it...
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