Today i was just killed by this person, sucked through the straw, destroyed... because a person i thought was my friend betrayed me for the girl i used to like, stabbed me in my neck, cutting through all my intestine... don't understand why... well today they actually showed me how much they care about me... excuses, i don't want to accept them, because i call them a lie, especially after i was for 30 minutes in cold and rain and they were sitting in the warm car watching me, no, really watching me, they didn't call me, they just saw me leave... and they didn't say good bye, or anything... i saw how people don't care...
Today in the morning talked to Alissa! and was all cheered up. You're my hero, Alissa! but we talk abot shit too much i guess... lol...
I just relized that i can't even kill myself, it's immoral... if i do, many people will get hurt, many people, so i
ve decided that i won't commint suicide... i don't care about many people, but i think that some deserve to live, maybe it's just me who doesn't deserve a normal life?!
just tell me, if i actually deserve something good to happen to me... why just crap, why just disappointment, why just pain, why just sorrow... and why just life?
<3 KO