I say this word so many times these days... maybe because everything lost it's taste... no more life, or actually real life, just the pain.... My friend today - i hug her everyday, so that everyone thinks we are a couple - said that we are not going to hug anymore, because of what people say... people don't even know what they say... should it matter? why does everyone care so much about their reputation, it's just another word without the meaning... something that is assumed to have value... this single word causes people to fake, to pretend to be someone they will never be... so, you know what i said to her: Okay... Good luck in your life... I think that i don't need friends who are ashamed of us being friends... I'm honestly tired... today talked to Bree for a few moments, and... she wanted to say something, i felt it, but she couldn't - what holds her from it? she just torchures me, telling about how excited she was, but why all this games? why all this shining cover? where is the love now?why does it have to end up like that, isn't there any other way out from here... maybe there is, but i don't see it today, maybe i won't see it tomorrow, but i will see it soon, because i want to see it... i want to see it... I'll be a loner for a while, again, as always - with friends but betrayed by most of them... and the rest just pretend to be friends... at the same time the REAL friends are far away, and i miss them dearly... duh... i guess i become nothing... duh... i guess this is the end... duh... the game of one story and the begining of anoher one...

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