tomorrow... tomorrow i'll see what's gonna happen... me and Bree were supposed to go out tomorrow, and i don't know if we still will... i need to ask her, but i'm afraid... to be honest... i'm afraid to go out with her, because when we are nearby each other we don't speak... why? because we know that another one thinks exactly the same thoughts... And yeah, we look at each other and see ourselves, like two mirrors facing each other, pure, brutal, maybe mean, but also honest and oppened to people. We understand ourselves and we understand people around, at least we try. We really care, but sometimes feel lonely. yes we feel Lonely. I'm tired of people pretending to be something they are not and i look for some respect, maybe care, some effort to give something back. like today i realized that my friends are actually far away from me, and i'm all alone, my mom is far. my closest friends are far and friends who are here, in the US, by my side are so far away too, but in the different way... because one of them has a girlfriend, and i understand it, but he thinks it's all that easy, another one goes to study too much... maybe it's me who pushes people away, but i'm honest, brutally honest lately, so i think that honesty pushes them away. they are afraid of it i guess... and they don't understand that they will have to face it someday. I spend hours with my girlfriend (my bass-guitar) just playing melodies... simple melodies... it makes me forget about a lot of stuff that is going on... haha
anyways, i need someone close, because everyone is getting too far.
<3 KO