yeah, it comes and goes, and i cannot follow it, i cannot teach people if they don't want to be taught, i cannot help you guys unless you at least respect me enough not to reveal my personal information to everyone. I mean seriously, why do i have to do it, keep your secrets? why? well, i guess it doesn't mean to you much anyways... on the other hand, why do you guys talk back to me, and ask me for help, when i need help myself, can't you guys see it, for real... seriously? it's easy: i'm fucking busy and freaking out and you guys are happy, and ask me to help, like if i was doing nothing, it's unfair, at least give me MY time to live. Well, from now on i shall not care if you don't care about me, your promises are lies, and i don't even want to be a part of those lies, i will disappear, disappear in a search for friends who will actually care. So far i can name just a few people that truly do, 2 in the US and 1 in KZ... maybe i'm selfish i do not know, but i have something i value, and as i see you guys don't...