party

Segodnia poshel na American Party.... v pizdu ih... skuchno, i glupo... skuchayu po nashim pohodam v klub s Alisskoi i Aney.

bila devochka odna, navernoe C.... (sis'ki)... vipadaut iz platiya, a ya i dumayu.... mDa.... ya i bol'she videl.... (muah, love ya Alice)

vipil chut' chut', i s'el alcohol'noe jele... i poehal domoi...

Bili bi vi so mnoi, devchenki, mi bi tam vse rasskrutili...

<3 KO
Skuchayu

@темы: Воспоминания, Мысли вслух, Позитив

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davno ne pisal

da i jelaniya osobogo net... len' eto nazivayetsia...

U menia vse idet po stupen'kam vverh, krome toi pari jeans kotorie ochen' lublu, im prishel konec...
Posmotrite Across the Universe - it's amazing...

A tak univer, ochen' veselaya shtuka inogda, no inogda vgoniayet v stress... hochu domoi, priedu primerno cherez 2 mesiaca... skuchayu...

S lubov'u KOKA

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pizdec

ya progressivnii chelovek, ne takoi uj priam i patriot, hot' i lublu svoyu stranu (RODINU)
no pizdec kak menia razdrajayut 15 letnie shlushki, iz neotkuda
i blia... slov net, skidivayut mne muziku kotoraya menia ne interesuyet i novosti na kotorie mne pohui!
kak na schet chego-nibud' stoyashego moego vnimaniya?
<3 ko

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wishes for the new year...

personal:
1. I wish to find a girlfriend
2. I wish to earn some money
3. I wish to get signed
4. I wish to get my grades to be better
5. I wish to smoke less
6. I wish to tune my car
7. I wish to open a business
8. I wish to travel to other country
family and friends:
1. I wish for my mom to be healthy
2. I wish for my dad to be even more successful
3. I wish for my grandparents to enjoy next year
4. I wish for my siblings to be smart enough and to make good choices
5. I wish for Alice to get everything that she wanted
6. I wish for Anna to stay pretty and only to get prettier
7. I wish for Jade to finally figure out what she want from her life
8. I wish for Yana to find a boyfriend with a big black dick
9. I wish for Oat to get fucked... haha
10. I wish for Bree to realize that world is not perfect
11. I wish for Stephanie to see a positive side of every story
12. I wish for their parents to be healthy
<3 KO

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blokes

another day, another stab in my heart ... it's funny how jealous i can get, and how insensitive. i told you guys before: i'm a bloke. my heart is cut out and thrown away.
and it keeps happening. I need coffee... i need cigs
and most of all i need sex...

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hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

pizdec! =D
i was wondering who i was in high school. there are 5 choice:
1......jock
2......prom queen
3......geek
4......loner
5......friendly (aka SLUT OT BLOKE)

i'm still wondering... and it kind of inspires me.

<3 KO

PS: two funny people have a pillow fight in the room right now... =D they are bitches, and they are proud of it.

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vot tak vsegda...

Pizdec ne vezet. ili prsto udacha u menia na vsiakuyu huinu...

ne vezet na lubov'... a hochetsia... ochen' hochetsia inogda...

obichno tak i poluchayetsia, navernoe mne nujno chtobi zagovorili moyo serdce, a mojet bit' vse devusgki kotorie mne nraviatsia ne naznacheni mne sud'boi.... smeshno - ya ved' ne veru v sud'bu.

a znayesh' hochetsia kupatsia v beskrainih gorizontah snega, katat'sia na kon'kah i padat' - bit'sia golovoi ob led, znaya chto tam est' kto-to... i eta kto-to prilaskayet, obniment, poceluyet - i bol' pokajetsia smeshnoi...

BLIAT'
broken heart....
jizn' takaya shtuka - odin den' dayet nadejdu - a potom sploshnaya suka

pizdec...

a ved' nado bilo je tak sdelat'.... nado bilo ved' tak postupit', eto igra tol'ko dlia menia - ya sam vinovat chto teper' chuvstvuyu sebia v pizde... hah... a potom hochu krichiat':


ne chestno

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a ya zadihaus' v svoih sobstvennih predchuvstviyah

kak ni stranno, no ya vse eshe veru v lubov' i vsu etu chush'... zachem, navernoe inogda ya sprashivayu sam sebia - eto vse chush'! erunda... no hochetsia verit' chto ta stervoznaya suka, vse-taki menia lubit, zachem sam sebe podayu nadejdu, zachem teriaus' v nei, ved' ee kak ne bilo tak i net - nu i ladno, pust' idet sebe na hui! a ya, ya prosto budu smotret' kak ona b'etsia lbom ob led, kak ishet toje samoe chto i ya ishu, i kak boitsia naiti samoe vajnoe v otlichie ot menia, pust' razob'et vse tarelki, i napishet bezmernoe kollichestvo zametok v ejednevnike, no vse eto loj', vse eto skazka... vse eto surealistichno, vse eto pusto...

Mojet bit' ya pitaus' naiti slova izvineniya, no oni vse vremia poluchayutsia bessmislennimy, mojet bit' chast' tebia do sih por lubit menia, daje esli mi prodoljayem jit'.... always all ways....

skuchayu po Alice i Ane i po mame... hochu domoi... hochu sneg - vziat' snowboard v ruki, odet' kurtku i otdihat' activno... oh... sil'no hochu...
<3 Ko

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San FRo

Yeah, i went to san francisco! it was pretty cool, i love the archetecture, beautiful buildings. Not much glamour but it's all good. I went to the club, i like the one i went to in Kazakhstan better. I wasn't drunk, but i was dancing, so it's all good. I dunno what really is going on, but i have a showcase on monday - wish me luck! please?

Yeah, and then, there is this girl, her name is Paige, she plays hard to get, but afraid to see me - i can tell she can't control herself around me, i dunno, i'm not that much into her, but i feel like there is something. So i feel confused about how to deal with this situation. I was flirting bad, she didn't know how to reply. Nothing like the last girl i liked (she was something, all those little games - she's still a challenge for me, and i still like her) well, coming back to my stuff - i'm very busy lately! i have no idea about what i should do, or what i shouldn't do, i hope luck will be on my side. and I'll make good choices. or bad ones. as long as i get to my destinations. And yes if you're ever in CALIFORNIA and OVER 21 - go to san fro... you'll love it.

<3 KO

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ya dig

paigiesaurusREXX (10:27:37 PM): happy thanksgivinggg
DarkRomance28 (10:27:51 PM): to you too
DarkRomance28 (10:27:56 PM): =D
paigiesaurusREXX (10:28:02 PM): how have you been?!
DarkRomance28 (10:28:35 PM): pretty good, and you? still with amit?
paigiesaurusREXX (10:29:25 PM): nope
paigiesaurusREXX (10:29:27 PM): :/
paigiesaurusREXX (10:29:36 PM): im currently broken hearted
DarkRomance28 (10:29:44 PM): ah, really? sorry... didn't know
DarkRomance28 (10:31:00 PM): i love how you dress, so different from your friends
DarkRomance28 (10:31:01 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (10:31:21 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (10:31:28 PM): what do u mean>
DarkRomance28 (10:32:09 PM): it's just not that girly girly, but very feminine, and sophisticated... =D
paigiesaurusREXX (10:35:48 PM): yay
paigiesaurusREXX (10:35:56 PM): were u looking at pictures
DarkRomance28 (10:36:18 PM): nope, i just saw you around before, do you have new ones on myspace?
paigiesaurusREXX (10:38:49 PM): yeah newer ones
paigiesaurusREXX (10:38:53 PM): :]
DarkRomance28 (10:39:17 PM): okay, i'll check them out. =D did you see my new pix?
paigiesaurusREXX (10:39:26 PM): nooooo
paigiesaurusREXX (10:39:31 PM): oh waitr
paigiesaurusREXX (10:39:37 PM): the black and white one?
DarkRomance28 (10:39:46 PM): i dunno, some over thetre
paigiesaurusREXX (10:39:54 PM): haha
paigiesaurusREXX (10:39:57 PM): ill look :]
DarkRomance28 (10:40:00 PM): deal
DarkRomance28 (10:40:02 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (10:40:24 PM): hehe so where are you rite now
DarkRomance28 (10:40:36 PM): in anaheim, and u?
paigiesaurusREXX (10:40:49 PM): !
paigiesaurusREXX (10:40:54 PM): your in anaheim?
DarkRomance28 (10:40:58 PM): of course
DarkRomance28 (10:41:02 PM): i'm always here
paigiesaurusREXX (10:41:14 PM): haha i never know anymore
DarkRomance28 (10:41:15 PM): well, most of the time
paigiesaurusREXX (10:41:26 PM): im in anaheim too :p
DarkRomance28 (10:41:34 PM): which part of anaheim
paigiesaurusREXX (10:41:52 PM): anaheim hills
paigiesaurusREXX (10:41:57 PM): off of tustin
DarkRomance28 (10:42:08 PM): ah, i know that place, i guess
DarkRomance28 (10:42:15 PM): there is starbucks in there
DarkRomance28 (10:42:22 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (10:42:52 PM): yeah off the freeway lol its a drivethru
DarkRomance28 (10:43:12 PM): i like it on the table
DarkRomance28 (10:43:21 PM): my starbucks
DarkRomance28 (10:43:24 PM): i mean
paigiesaurusREXX (10:43:30 PM): HAHAHA
DarkRomance28 (10:43:46 PM): are you a senior right now...
DarkRomance28 (10:43:53 PM): nope, i think you're a junior
DarkRomance28 (10:43:55 PM): =D
paigiesaurusREXX (10:44:08 PM): yeppp
paigiesaurusREXX (10:44:14 PM): youre right
paigiesaurusREXX (10:44:16 PM): :]
DarkRomance28 (10:44:23 PM): as usual
DarkRomance28 (10:44:25 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (10:45:04 PM): hahah of course
DarkRomance28 (10:45:31 PM): were you in the play this year?
paigiesaurusREXX (10:48:29 PM): nooo
paigiesaurusREXX (10:49:00 PM): it wasnt interesting looking
DarkRomance28 (10:50:45 PM): why not? I think you're more exotic them most of fairmont students
DarkRomance28 (10:51:54 PM): you're beautiful, smart, andnot a wannabe, like some other people
DarkRomance28 (10:52:02 PM): i love it
paigiesaurusREXX (10:55:18 PM): awwww
paigiesaurusREXX (10:55:30 PM):
DarkRomance28 (10:55:41 PM): you thi?nk i'm being sweet
DarkRomance28 (10:55:45 PM): ?
DarkRomance28 (10:55:47 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (10:56:01 PM): maybe...or just a good liar :p
DarkRomance28 (10:56:28 PM): i would ust say it's THE TRUTH
paigiesaurusREXX (10:57:55 PM): what makes you say all that
DarkRomance28 (10:58:24 PM): the reality i see
DarkRomance28 (10:58:30 PM): =D
DarkRomance28 (10:59:55 PM): you don't believe me, do you?
paigiesaurusREXX (11:00:05 PM): not really
DarkRomance28 (11:00:41 PM): why not? do i seem to be a bloke, or a pick up artist?
DarkRomance28 (11:00:42 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (11:01:22 PM): LOL
paigiesaurusREXX (11:01:24 PM): noooooo
paigiesaurusREXX (11:01:43 PM): i just dont believe im that unique or beautiful or smart
DarkRomance28 (11:02:21 PM): you don't have to, thats just what i see
DarkRomance28 (11:03:49 PM): who do you want to win in ANTM?
paigiesaurusREXX (11:04:44 PM): antm?
DarkRomance28 (11:04:56 PM): america's next top model
paigiesaurusREXX (11:05:13 PM): ooooo haha i havent been watching this season :/
DarkRomance28 (11:05:42 PM): wow. i watch it every wed, and gossip girl too
DarkRomance28 (11:05:57 PM): with mes ami
DarkRomance28 (11:06:59 PM): do you watch gossip girl?
paigiesaurusREXX (11:07:06 PM): yes!
paigiesaurusREXX (11:07:09 PM): so goooooood
DarkRomance28 (11:07:13 PM): love it
paigiesaurusREXX (11:07:19 PM): me too!
DarkRomance28 (11:07:27 PM): who do you like in there
DarkRomance28 (11:07:32 PM): the most
DarkRomance28 (11:07:35 PM): i mean
paigiesaurusREXX (11:07:50 PM): hold on brb reall quikkkk i promise
paigiesaurusREXX (11:07:53 PM): :]
DarkRomance28 (11:07:54 PM): ks
paigiesaurusREXX (11:16:18 PM): boooo
paigiesaurusREXX (11:16:25 PM): i cant see ur pictures
DarkRomance28 (11:16:44 PM): i wonder why...
DarkRomance28 (11:17:24 PM): yoh have facebook?
DarkRomance28 (11:17:26 PM): right?
paigiesaurusREXX (11:18:04 PM): yessss
DarkRomance28 (11:18:11 PM): you can see my pix there
paigiesaurusREXX (11:18:58 PM): my internets being funky rite now
DarkRomance28 (11:19:27 PM): ah i see, well anyways, beautiful, i need to go, i'm leaving at 5 am tomorrow to sf
paigiesaurusREXX (11:20:13 PM): ugh!
paigiesaurusREXX (11:20:16 PM): so earlyyyy
DarkRomance28 (11:20:21 PM): i dig
paigiesaurusREXX (11:20:30 PM): yeah ill be up for shopping tomorrow
paigiesaurusREXX (11:20:33 PM): lol
DarkRomance28 (11:20:58 PM): black friday! good luck with that
paigiesaurusREXX (11:21:33 PM): ohhh yeahhh
paigiesaurusREXX (11:21:45 PM): its such a hassle
paigiesaurusREXX (11:21:51 PM): but it will be worth it
paigiesaurusREXX (11:22:29 PM): but yeah i like serena the best btw
paigiesaurusREXX (11:22:31 PM): :p
DarkRomance28 (11:22:40 PM): and from the guys
paigiesaurusREXX (11:23:09 PM): dan
paigiesaurusREXX (11:23:14 PM): hes a cutie
paigiesaurusREXX (11:23:17 PM): lol
DarkRomance28 (11:23:35 PM): oh i see.
DarkRomance28 (11:23:36 PM): lol
DarkRomance28 (11:23:52 PM): who do you think i seem to be alike?
paigiesaurusREXX (11:24:09 PM): hmmm
paigiesaurusREXX (11:24:22 PM): idk your unique
paigiesaurusREXX (11:24:30 PM): youre not really like all them
DarkRomance28 (11:25:16 PM): well i am like one of them... many people who really know me know who is the character... =D
paigiesaurusREXX (11:27:47 PM): eek
paigiesaurusREXX (11:27:53 PM): i cant really think rite now haha
paigiesaurusREXX (11:27:56 PM): im so out of it
DarkRomance28 (11:28:06 PM): get to know me better and you will know
DarkRomance28 (11:28:13 PM): lol
paigiesaurusREXX (11:28:35 PM): ok deal :]
paigiesaurusREXX (11:28:42 PM): you better talk to me more then
paigiesaurusREXX (11:28:46 PM): hehe
DarkRomance28 (11:29:26 PM): good night then, i'll give you more... to talk about next time
paigiesaurusREXX (11:29:56 PM): hehehe
paigiesaurusREXX (11:30:00 PM): ok :]
paigiesaurusREXX (11:30:05 PM): sleep well...
paigiesaurusREXX (11:30:15 PM): i think ur most like dan
paigiesaurusREXX (11:30:27 PM): or nate
DarkRomance28 (11:30:36 PM): i think you're going to find out more, and then will decide
paigiesaurusREXX (11:30:44 PM): mmmm
paigiesaurusREXX (11:30:48 PM): okie dokie
paigiesaurusREXX (11:30:57 PM): im me anytime
paigiesaurusREXX (11:31:06 PM): do u have texting
DarkRomance28 (11:31:17 PM): yes, 310 651 0858\
paigiesaurusREXX (11:31:36 PM): yay
DarkRomance28 (11:31:38 PM): how bout you, just so i know that it's not trisha this time
paigiesaurusREXX (11:31:43 PM): ok ill text you then
paigiesaurusREXX (11:31:47 PM): lol
DarkRomance28 (11:31:49 PM): i'll be waiting
paigiesaurusREXX (11:31:52 PM): 714 926 8208
paigiesaurusREXX (11:31:57 PM): and yes i have texting
paigiesaurusREXX (11:32:16 PM): mmk sleep well
paigiesaurusREXX (11:32:18 PM): :]
DarkRomance28 (11:32:32 PM): you too

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the sound of mirrors....

Dear readers, have you ever noticed how people look in the mirror, and change in the face - they don't like how they look, they hate how their hair sux, how the lips are dry, and skin is irritated, then we take make up kits, metrofication projects and change all those mistakes. change our faces, morals, we start wearing masks, that hide our reality of an inconfident nerds in the glamour of popularity and dream, someone we are jealous of and someone we want to be like... But why can't you be the way you are, and be glamour at the same time, why do you need to produce fake smiles when you're in the glamour stage, why do you need to suddenly become a pick up artist, when in reality you're nothing more then nothing. why do you need to pretend that you have money when you really don't? what are you guys trying to proof? why do you say that you want a jerk, when you need a prince on a shining horse in the shining armor. Or how a bloke pretends to be nice just to get in the pants of an innocent girl. How this girl creates an image of a slut from herself... and how she suffers in her imaginary world. We fly after the stars, often without knowing where we will end up. we care about the end more then about the result, when it should be other way around...

Confession: I'm a bloke, I'm a devil, I'm not the prince some people may see in me. And i'm far from innocent. I do hurt people, but some people actually understand why i do it... do you?

some people write stories from my words, some people start their life, and i take a lot out of it... i take souls, lives - credits... to do something worthy in this life. I'm selfish, i care about myself the most, but it may change, may not... and i admit to it. because this is what makes me beautiful, the fact that i'm real.

KO aka TY aka Chuck

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SEX AND THE CITY

I'm watching SEX and the CITY... I'm sleepy... and i'm done with my homework, though there is a lot more to do... It's a lame halloween, but it's all good... it's all awesome... I want to find a girlfriend... a real one, but it seems that I'm not doing anything for it, i'm more concerned about modeling and stuff, rather then looking for one...
<3 KO

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hah

stoit li teriat' rassudok, i shodit' s uma - ved' jizn' vsego odna, ih ne dano nam dve...
stoit li skrivat' postupok, ili brosat' bokal vina - ne luchshe li dopit' do dna, a ne revet' v govne...

Flirtuete devchenki, smeetes' mal'chishki, potom vse plachut... knijki... tak mnogomu uchili i uchat daje seichas, no ya daje ne znayu chto proishodit s nami, s vami, so mnoi... ya teriaus' i nahoju sebia, plivu po techeniu, ili grebu vdol'... glotau vozduh, polnii nikotina, ne sojaleu, i proshiau... dau shansi, potom stradau... lublu i upivaus' etim, ved' chuvstvva net chudnei na svete... net ya ne plachu, zachem, pustaya trata slez, ya obnimau i teriau temp... i rythm... i stolbeneu... ved' eto tak je priyatno i sil'no kak orgasm... jizn' prekrasna, i mi krasivi, mi shchastlivi i mi schastlivi... zachem bejim kuda-popalo, zachem teriaem, i vse ravno nam malo. a vdrug v eto est' smisl, est' nachalo, oshibki - vse chto nujno ludiam. ved' bez oshibo mi ne ludi, mi perestayem uchit'sia, molit'sia, hotet' jelat'. boimsia provalov... jelaem jit' a jizni malo... zaviduem. nu a potom poem mi pesni... i ishem to chto interesno... klianemsia, no ne derjim kliatvi... kusaem nogti... vse dlia chego, naiti otvet legko... legko...

I'm not pretty - I'm beautiful!
I'm not handsome - i'm beautiful...

<3 KO

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accident

so i got in the car accident, the other guys car was broken...
whatever...
i'm fine...
whatever...
I got in the modeling agency for casting
yeah!
and
i got in!
YEAH


high FASHION
yeah baby!

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DarkRomance28 (1:10:24 AM): hey


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dinosawrs (1:23:29 AM): heya?
DarkRomance28 (1:23:35 AM): sup?
dinosawr (1:24:49 AM): in my rooom
dinosawrs (1:24:51 AM): at school
dinosawrs (1:24:55 AM): what about u
DarkRomance28 (1:25:06 AM): i'm in my room - close to school
DarkRomance28 (1:25:12 AM): movrd in today
dinosawrs (1:25:26 AM): didnt ucr already start?
DarkRomance28 (1:25:33 AM): nope - tomorrow
DarkRomance28 (1:26:25 AM): so what happened to your car?
dinosawrs (1:27:10 AM): nothin i just didnt bring it to college
DarkRomance28 (1:27:38 AM): eh, i see... what are you going to do this weekend?
dinosawrs (1:27:59 AM): tomorrow going home to take steph out
dinosawrs (1:28:06 AM): saturday hair appt then returning to school
DarkRomance28 (1:29:02 AM): I see. Is your appointment any close to pasadena?
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DarkRomance28 (1:30:25 AM): is the hair appointment any close to pasadena?
dinosawrs (1:30:36 AM): no its in orange
DarkRomance28 (1:31:01 AM): ah i see, cuz i'm gonna be in pasadena on saturday
DarkRomance28 (1:31:03 AM): =D
dinosawrs (1:32:08 AM): awwwough
DarkRomance28 (1:32:34 AM): hmmm, is your school far from the OC?
dinosawrs (1:35:11 AM): bout 35 mins
dinosawrs (1:35:16 AM): i got there today in that long
DarkRomance28 (1:35:44 AM): hmmm, that's actually closer then Riverside is... traffic
DarkRomance28 (1:37:05 AM): may i come by some time?
dinosawr (1:37:19 AM): of course!
DarkRomance28 (1:37:48 AM): what days are you going to be free?
dinosawrs (1:38:03 AM): mondays and wednesdays im free all day after 2
DarkRomance28 (1:38:30 AM): and weekends too?
dinosawrs (1:38:41 AM): most of the time
DarkRomance28 (1:39:10 AM): okay i'll do so... sometime soon
dinosawrs (1:40:23 AM): coool
DarkRomance28 (1:40:39 AM): do you like surprizes?
dinosawrs (1:40:47 AM): sometimes haha
DarkRomance28 (1:41:31 AM): i hope the day i come over will be that "sometimes"
DarkRomance28 (1:41:33 AM): =D
DarkRomance28 (1:41:35 AM): haha
dinosawrs (1:48:32 AM): but yea
dinosawrs (1:48:38 AM): i unno
dinosawrs(1:48:40 AM): i cant stand it here
dinosawrsr (1:48:46 AM): so...any time you want to come is welcome
DarkRomace28 (1:49:24 AM): I'll bring some cigs and tea - brought those two for you - you might like them... lol
dinosawrsr (1:49:38 AM):
DarkRomance28 (1:50:46 AM): those cigs are so funny... all the packs say - smoking kills, and other stuff like: smoking reduces blood flow and causes impotence... funny but kinda scary
DarkRomance28 (1:50:47 AM): lol
DarkRomance28 (1:50:49 AM): hahah
dinosawrsr (1:51:29 AM): impotence?
dinosawrsr (1:51:32 AM): never heard of that one
DarkRomace28 (1:51:51 AM): I 'll show you - it's on parlament pack
DarkRomance28 (1:53:34 AM): do you want me to bring anything else...?
dinosawrs (1:54:00 AM): just yourself
DarkRomance28 (1:54:40 AM): I'll do so... =D you want any parts in perticular? lol
dinosawrs (1:54:51 AM): hmm
dinosawrs (1:59:47 AM): just yoself
DarkRomance28 (2:00:08 AM): okay - that's easy to do.. =D
DarkRomance28 (2:00:17 AM): well i guess i'll see you soon...
DarkRomance28 (2:00:26 AM): just drop me the address
dinosawrs (2:00:46 AM): 1 LMU Drive, Los Angeles CA 90045
DarkRomance28 (2:00:54 AM): =D
dinosawrs (2:01:11 AM): if you're visiting you have to go to the guy at the front gate so they can take ur info
DarkRomance28 (2:01:50 AM): haha, i'll tell them that i'm a srial killer, and i have a job to do... lol
dinosawrs (2:01:51 AM): i think i dont know just go anyways
dinosawrs (2:01:58 AM): great ko
DarkRomance28 (2:02:09 AM): yeah i can say that too
DarkRomance28 (2:03:16 AM): well, i guess i'll se you soon... =D
DarkRomance28 (2:03:18 AM): i hope

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hmmmm

razocharovan

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Alice's Bday...

So it was great, not just that it was my sisters birthday, but it was in a club, with people around who I'm very friendly with. I had like 5 vodka shots, and i did not through up in the morning, though i was disappointed in somebody that night. and it hurt me. I thought it was gone, but not really - it was still there, small but i could feel it.

Club was fun, i've never been in the club, and it made my day so awesome, i thought I should go there more often.
Special note to alice: You were beautiful last night, the dress was awesome even though it was falling off once in a while. and the haircut... yeah baby! that was totally your day.

I know you said you were disappointed, and a bit angry, and sad... but I'm here for you... We can go somewhere and talk about it and other fun and sad (real) stuff. But i have to say again - you gals got me drank and made me dance. "drunk doddiks"... =D

Well, it was sad you left early, but i understand it. =D ...

Well, your bday was so cool that my sox were lost in the sky when it rocked them offf....

And i was so drunk that when i got back i got online and said: Bree ur awesome!
and then: i luv ya
and stuff

hmmm, dunno why....
<3 Ko

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some other note about love and stuff related to it.

Well, i'm not sure what is love, i'm not sure i have experienced it, but i want to tell, that there are 2 girls that make me think that there is still love in my heart. I think you guys and gals know both of them. Cuz i wrote a fw times about it. But anyways there is so much feeling in this word, so i'm not even sure that there is a person who can define the word love.

another thing: there is OAT, and he's gay, he got online a few days ago, and started to tell me how he likes my friend whose name is Lazarus, and who's not gay. I dunno, i mean seriously why do i have to listen to this? oh well, i turned off my PC thought a bit, and then turned it ot again, and answered him, that there are so many people, and he should find a mate for himself, and forget about Lazarus. I dunno. Oat is an okay dude, and he's not obsessed with his gayness, but sometimes what he tells me, is so disguasting: thanks there are no details. haha.

other thing: one of those girls makes me wanna... i miss her, and she's far away: i had a dream tonight, and it was partly about her, she was there and she saw me and i gave her a hug, i never knew that just a hug can be so sensual, and warm. haha - i woke up and thought maybe this is love?! and then a message: COME BACK SOON..... - from her... i'm getting confused... she needs me, but why?

oh yeah, ood news: the i-20 document is coming in soon, so i'm waiting for it... =D... and i got 2 new shirts... and i miss COFFEE AND TEA GARDEN... i dunno, i just want to go there sometime soon, but we will see. And i have an online planner now: ZOHO! it's a reall fun thing to plan, i never knew it can be so much fun...

<3 KO

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eh, hehe.

oh yeah, i had a great time these two days! thanx to Alice and Ann. =D

Well, where to start, i'm not that sick anymore, and i have a new beautiful dog, and also one of my really close friends is kinda gives me some signs, but i don't want to take it seriously right now, cuz i don't want to be in the same position as i was some time ago... I will rather wait until i get there, and then we can communcate...

LeChat called today, like saying sorry, and stuff. I accepted the sorry part, but i dunno if i really want to be his friend again.

Yeah, and fate, I make my own fate. Got some weird information today from girls magazines at BONBON. and i saw hookah there, it should be good - thought KO. lol... okay, so the sky is clear, i'm happy, and i'm going back in Business really soon, so I'm excited and other blah blah blah....
<3 KO

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hey, i feel so super... though there is some unhappy thought.

listen to this shit, i have received today... and tell me what you think...

ty byl samym blizkim chelovekom... kotoromu ya doveryal i v kogo ya veril... ya daje mog pojertvovat' mnogim chtoby pomoch tebe... no ty izmenilsa...

i delo ne v tom 4to ty stal kak BABA, ty mnogo vresh... ty empty... ty pustoy i sovershenno ne interesnyi i ne iskrenniy chelovek...

Tebe ne idet byt' plohim! a ty pytaeshsya!!!!
smoking. y? ty vyglagel kak pridurok s sigaretoy!!!! odevaeshsya kak Pedic! u tebya jenskie manery... nachinaya s Graduation kogda ty prishel s jenskoy pricheskoy!!!! tebya obsujdali vse i ne kak Super-zveezdu, kotoroy zaviduyut, a kak s'ehavshego s katushek...

ty bez tseli v jizni... ty obmanyvaesh roditelei, no pri etom ostaeshsa mamen'kin synochkom...

Ty mne vral... TU UROD! ty predatel'!!!! ty otkryl moyu po4tu, ty udalil menya i daje nichego ne skazal... Postupil kak BABA!!!

Ty slaback i vsegda byl takim, tolko ranshe ya etogo ne zamechal... ty zanuda i vsegda zadiraesh nos... Tebe kajetsa 4to lyudi toboy voshi6ayutsa ili preklanyautsa pered toboy... Tolko ya preklanyalsa pered toboy da i to ot togo 4to vsegda voshishayus' druz'yami... ty nikto... ty ne prosto gordiy, ty slabak... n umeyesh proshat'... Ne mogu bol'she litsemerit', hotya nikodga etogo ne delal, ya prosto derjal eto v sebe i prosil pomoshi drugih tak kak ya za tebya perejival! a ne spletni4al...

Ty stal Lozerom...

pridurok... ty vsegda v sebe! ty zastavlaeash nevinnyh lyudey prosit' u tebya prosheniya za tvoi je oshibjki!


Eto ne vse 4to ya mogu skazat' o tebe... prosto ya boleyu... i myslyu ne sovsem kak vsegda...

Urod! Suka!

Ya tebya shital drugom vplot' do togo momenta poka ty ne udalil menya...

Te kto prigayut vokrug tebya - ty dumaesh ty interesuesh it? da vspomni hot' odnogo 4eloveka kotorogo ty hot' raz v jizni chem-libo zainteresoval?
1 - ya... da i to, potomuchto ty byl horoshim... pomogal mne spravitsa s moey nervoznost'yu... ne daval mne delat' takie oshibki!!!

SEi4as ty u4ishsa na psihologa... no daje soveta 'drugu' dat' ne mojesh... Ty pustoy... Ty nikto... potomu4to ty ho4esh byt' plohim.... u tebya ne poluchitsa... kak Trudno byt' horoshim!!!! ty slabak... i pridurok, t,k, ne ponimaesh 4to ty ne smojesh by plohim!!!

Kurish P'yosh... kak i vse... kazalos' by nu i 4to... a to, 4to Kuryashiy i P'yushiy Kostya eto nevoobrazimo!!!!

Teryaesh blizkih lyudey... smotri sam ne poteryaysa...
Naiti predannogo druda slojvee 4em kompaniyu dlya Kaliyana....

UROD

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written by LeChat...

i feel positive, and was just laughing at it... but i can't take it out of my head....