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I love psychology... weird science, amorphous... but awesome... so i went to my psychologist today... and came there 40 minutes earlier... so i had to wait... My psychologist invited me to her appartment, so there wasn't a way for me to come earlier, it wouldn't be polite... so here i am, standing alone in this freezing morning and waiting... i can't wait longer, so i just go to the narest department store to spend my time... it took me about 10 minutes to get there... and 20 to get around this store 15 times and visit the bathroom... 10 minutes back to her house. And guess what: my watch is set wrong, so i got there late by 15 minutes... Talked to her for 2 and a half hours... what a nice talking i would say... got so many thought on life... then left all happy and cheered up... I was almost crying when got there... was jumping around and smiling a lot... even created a line for my song in my mind... something like: in frozen heat of your cool heart... cheezy i know... but yeah, got into a cab and went out to get gifts for my parents... i bet they will be like: wow! i love that... btw
i know that they love me and try to give me what is the best for me, but it is hard on me... I've put myself in their shoes... i would worry a lot, if my son was making the choices i make...
i say that there is no time, but i say it not even thinking of how much time do i waste on some random stuff, especially thinking... thinking of life, what is not usual for the kids of my age, or even for some adults...
right now my back hurts, and my toe might be bleeding... but my heart is smiling... smiling for me, for you, for everyone... there is always a choice, there is always a word that makes it real, there is always some hope... and yes, i think there is meaning of life... and no matter what it is, it is easier to live, when you know there is one...
I would like to post one of my poems here today too... old one... and yep, i've promised to myself that i'll write a poem as soon as an inspiration comes... the greatest poem ever... i feel it comming...
“What’s wrong with you?”
“Nothing” –
He answered her,
Laughing…
I’m okay,
The world is mistaken,
And sitting on roof,
I’m dieing and faking.
The stars are so pretty,
The candles turned on…
I’m looking on city,
And scream on my own.
They say it’s my world,
And it’s better to make it,
But also they told,
That I cannot shake it!
I wanted to love,
I wanted to dream,
I wanted MY grove,
But now I just scream!
You said it was mine,
You gave it to me;
But then in divine,
You didn’t give key…
What can I say?
I’m tired of lie!
I look in those eyes,
I rather would die…
The world made me real,
It wants me to fake,
I know how I feel,
Exploring this lake!
My will is a rock,
It’s useless to fight,
It’s better to lock,
This infinite light…
I just wanted to love…
I just wanted to dream,
I just wanted to live,
But now I just scream…
Huh?!
it's an old one... and i used to like it, i still do, but it's not about me now... I've changed to better since.
piture: there is always sun if you want to see it... =D
i know that they love me and try to give me what is the best for me, but it is hard on me... I've put myself in their shoes... i would worry a lot, if my son was making the choices i make...
i say that there is no time, but i say it not even thinking of how much time do i waste on some random stuff, especially thinking... thinking of life, what is not usual for the kids of my age, or even for some adults...
right now my back hurts, and my toe might be bleeding... but my heart is smiling... smiling for me, for you, for everyone... there is always a choice, there is always a word that makes it real, there is always some hope... and yes, i think there is meaning of life... and no matter what it is, it is easier to live, when you know there is one...
I would like to post one of my poems here today too... old one... and yep, i've promised to myself that i'll write a poem as soon as an inspiration comes... the greatest poem ever... i feel it comming...
“What’s wrong with you?”
“Nothing” –
He answered her,
Laughing…
I’m okay,
The world is mistaken,
And sitting on roof,
I’m dieing and faking.
The stars are so pretty,
The candles turned on…
I’m looking on city,
And scream on my own.
They say it’s my world,
And it’s better to make it,
But also they told,
That I cannot shake it!
I wanted to love,
I wanted to dream,
I wanted MY grove,
But now I just scream!
You said it was mine,
You gave it to me;
But then in divine,
You didn’t give key…
What can I say?
I’m tired of lie!
I look in those eyes,
I rather would die…
The world made me real,
It wants me to fake,
I know how I feel,
Exploring this lake!
My will is a rock,
It’s useless to fight,
It’s better to lock,
This infinite light…
I just wanted to love…
I just wanted to dream,
I just wanted to live,
But now I just scream…
Huh?!
it's an old one... and i used to like it, i still do, but it's not about me now... I've changed to better since.
piture: there is always sun if you want to see it... =D