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wrote a not and it disappeared... gosh... so much time spent!
so basicly it said i was thinkgin about finding my dad, i know he's an asshole, but i won't feel so lonely if he'll be there for me, and if he won't... at least i hope my friends will be there for me... they will help me out, they will help me to get through... i hope they will... i'm tired of people saying "OK" when i say good night... it's not right... do i have to say good night to them, no, but why do they make it to be like i have to do it every night... don't understand...
I want to open my eyes... i want to see the world like it is... maybe cruel... maybe safe... depends on the method i've been rased with... My eyes... they are like in some kind of gaze... i cannot see much of what i want with them...
and i feel like i'm too young... i feel that i act like a 12 years old... is it really me... i just see it sometimes and i'm like wtf?!
no i'm getting shizophrenia... hurts? not at all... pleasure... not really... i'm just tired...
I need some love in this life for god's sake! the life without love back suffocates me... yes it does... how dumb is that... i don't want to eat... i don't want to breath... i try to escape this sinful planet, because it never gave me reasons to stay, just responsibilities... why? do i deserve it? people say Bad Karma... was i a serial killer im past lives then?! i need to love... i can't understand people who say that they don't need love... liars! sometimes i need to hold someones hand, just to feel this eaching in the chest... because my heart gets bigger... it becomes real... reality... let me escape you, or find me a girl... done.
If you feel like dying...
if you feel like dying...
If you feel like dying...
you might wanna sing...
<3 KO
so basicly it said i was thinkgin about finding my dad, i know he's an asshole, but i won't feel so lonely if he'll be there for me, and if he won't... at least i hope my friends will be there for me... they will help me out, they will help me to get through... i hope they will... i'm tired of people saying "OK" when i say good night... it's not right... do i have to say good night to them, no, but why do they make it to be like i have to do it every night... don't understand...
I want to open my eyes... i want to see the world like it is... maybe cruel... maybe safe... depends on the method i've been rased with... My eyes... they are like in some kind of gaze... i cannot see much of what i want with them...
and i feel like i'm too young... i feel that i act like a 12 years old... is it really me... i just see it sometimes and i'm like wtf?!
no i'm getting shizophrenia... hurts? not at all... pleasure... not really... i'm just tired...
I need some love in this life for god's sake! the life without love back suffocates me... yes it does... how dumb is that... i don't want to eat... i don't want to breath... i try to escape this sinful planet, because it never gave me reasons to stay, just responsibilities... why? do i deserve it? people say Bad Karma... was i a serial killer im past lives then?! i need to love... i can't understand people who say that they don't need love... liars! sometimes i need to hold someones hand, just to feel this eaching in the chest... because my heart gets bigger... it becomes real... reality... let me escape you, or find me a girl... done.
If you feel like dying...
if you feel like dying...
If you feel like dying...
you might wanna sing...
<3 KO