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Yesterday i was talking to one of the jocks in my school... how funny, he doesn't know why i feel emo, and tries to give some suggestions... why? why does he say that i should look for fun, and entertainment... he never had the moment when you just can't, when even if you want, your mind says no.... because dark thoughts return... he was like impossible... you shoul always have fun... and i thought, one day you'll be forced to something scary like me, and then what, are you going to have fun....
He was like: you're not doing anything about it, and me: I cannot do anything... I'm stuck... he just laughs... says emo... gah... how pathetic...
Anyways i was with my friend yesterday, we were sitting under the theatre seats and listening to music... other jock came up to us and took a picture... i just don't understand it, he has everything he wants and needs: a family, a girlfriend and many other things... why would he look for the scandal? i know it's excitening to look for a scandal in somebody elses life, but it's unpolite... especially when we have a personal issues... cuz other boy (the one who is my friends ex) got closer with the girl i like, and we are like: ah, how sad, too bad... but there is a difference... My friend hates them... and i'm just like: good luck... i think that hate cant change anything... or it actually can: in what way though? How would you feel if it happened to you, i just wonder?!
some people asked me not to commit the suicide, they said: it can't be that bad... and i'm like: it is that bad... they wanted me to promise them that i'm not gonna do it... maybe it's going toe another broken promise... ? no?
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He was like: you're not doing anything about it, and me: I cannot do anything... I'm stuck... he just laughs... says emo... gah... how pathetic...
Anyways i was with my friend yesterday, we were sitting under the theatre seats and listening to music... other jock came up to us and took a picture... i just don't understand it, he has everything he wants and needs: a family, a girlfriend and many other things... why would he look for the scandal? i know it's excitening to look for a scandal in somebody elses life, but it's unpolite... especially when we have a personal issues... cuz other boy (the one who is my friends ex) got closer with the girl i like, and we are like: ah, how sad, too bad... but there is a difference... My friend hates them... and i'm just like: good luck... i think that hate cant change anything... or it actually can: in what way though? How would you feel if it happened to you, i just wonder?!
some people asked me not to commit the suicide, they said: it can't be that bad... and i'm like: it is that bad... they wanted me to promise them that i'm not gonna do it... maybe it's going toe another broken promise... ? no?
<3 KO