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I've been out with my friends smoking hookah yesterday night... and i still can smell the flavor... to be honest: i smoked too much this time, and my nervous system got stressed: first my left ear stopped hearing sounds, second, my hands were electrolized... and 3rd - i felt dizzy. weird... but my caugh went away. We were playing cards and discussing about life... then we went to Stans house to watch a movie, Fight club. Movie tells to live for the moment, and it's not the best movie about it, but i like it... other than that: was reading diaries, and found this:
Is it really true? maybe it is, i mean, i want many things dearly, but they don't enter my life, maybe i'm on the wrong bus in this time flow. or maybe i'm walking along it and looking for something that the flow just cannot give me, or doesn't want to give me... should i be less desperate? should i be less sensitive to the signs... should i be someone who doesn't want anything, and gets everything... I try to live the life to the fullest, i do whatever i want to do, or at least try, but nothing happens to me, just like snow never happend in jungles.
i don't have much to ask, nor have much to want, but sometimes i think maybe it's because i don't really NEED it? And people just live, they don't care about some weird stuff, they don't think about death so much, or about spirits and mind power and soul, they just live, they take more from life than i am, but yet less than i do. I take questions, and they take everything else, these creates inbalance. and i feel left out and lonely, because people don't understand me, not because of my accent, but because we speak about different things... I'm talking of being successful as to be able to MAKE all wishes to come true at any time, and they see it as GET all desires to be real, no matter what...
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YOU WON'T EVER GET WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR
Is it really true? maybe it is, i mean, i want many things dearly, but they don't enter my life, maybe i'm on the wrong bus in this time flow. or maybe i'm walking along it and looking for something that the flow just cannot give me, or doesn't want to give me... should i be less desperate? should i be less sensitive to the signs... should i be someone who doesn't want anything, and gets everything... I try to live the life to the fullest, i do whatever i want to do, or at least try, but nothing happens to me, just like snow never happend in jungles.
i don't have much to ask, nor have much to want, but sometimes i think maybe it's because i don't really NEED it? And people just live, they don't care about some weird stuff, they don't think about death so much, or about spirits and mind power and soul, they just live, they take more from life than i am, but yet less than i do. I take questions, and they take everything else, these creates inbalance. and i feel left out and lonely, because people don't understand me, not because of my accent, but because we speak about different things... I'm talking of being successful as to be able to MAKE all wishes to come true at any time, and they see it as GET all desires to be real, no matter what...
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