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Today i was just killed by this person, sucked through the straw, destroyed... because a person i thought was my friend betrayed me for the girl i used to like, stabbed me in my neck, cutting through all my intestine... don't understand why... well today they actually showed me how much they care about me... excuses, i don't want to accept them, because i call them a lie, especially after i was for 30 minutes in cold and rain and they were sitting in the warm car watching me, no, really watching me, they didn't call me, they just saw me leave... and they didn't say good bye, or anything... i saw how people don't care...
Today in the morning talked to Alissa! and was all cheered up. You're my hero, Alissa! but we talk abot shit too much i guess... lol...
I just relized that i can't even kill myself, it's immoral... if i do, many people will get hurt, many people, so i
ve decided that i won't commint suicide... i don't care about many people, but i think that some deserve to live, maybe it's just me who doesn't deserve a normal life?!
just tell me, if i actually deserve something good to happen to me... why just crap, why just disappointment, why just pain, why just sorrow... and why just life?
<3 KO
Today in the morning talked to Alissa! and was all cheered up. You're my hero, Alissa! but we talk abot shit too much i guess... lol...
I just relized that i can't even kill myself, it's immoral... if i do, many people will get hurt, many people, so i
ve decided that i won't commint suicide... i don't care about many people, but i think that some deserve to live, maybe it's just me who doesn't deserve a normal life?!
just tell me, if i actually deserve something good to happen to me... why just crap, why just disappointment, why just pain, why just sorrow... and why just life?
<3 KO
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31.01.2007 в 07:01Honey, i`m not your hero... I`m your friend. I`m your sista
about suicide.... thats a crap. You can do better than that... you have the future!!! Dont tear it apart. Its not about everyone will be hurt(but still, we will...) it`s about you. How can you change your dreams for that? There is so much more....
Я думаю это просто черная полоса. Затянувшаяся. Но все пройетд. И боль утихнет. Столько всего впереди ждет. Карьера. Дружба. Гулянки. Любовь.... Да, любовь тоже ждет.... просто её очень сложно найти... Она не всем открывается..только избранным, а ты у меня - такой. Я люблю тебя, Ко. Очень сильно!!!!!! И если с тобой что-нибудь случится.... я никогда тебе не прощу.!
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31.01.2007 в 07:20Eh, prosto tak vse nadoelo, zavisimost' moei jizni ot ch'ei-to eshe, ya hochupojit' nezavisimo i ne mogu... ved' nado je prismotret' za bratikom i sestrenkoi, maney, i drugimi, a dlia menia uje potom nichego mojet i ne ostat'sia, ni kar'eri, ni lubvi, ni utesheniya, lish' plohaya karma, v kotoruyu ya ne veru... hehe... spasibo, chto vsegda here for me...
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31.01.2007 в 07:23про суицид вапще забудь...не думай о такой возможности! никогда!
не грусти...
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31.01.2007 в 07:28-
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31.01.2007 в 08:56