<3 Ko
Dear diary,
Today i saw my friends being different, seems like they can't see me, and avoid me... but it's just a matter of time... i know for sure i'm over the girl, yeah, because of same emptiness, and i'm happy that she's happy... she gets angry and i'm woried, if it's about me, but it's not... i hope not... even if it is, the time will change everything... the world doesn't hate people, did i ever said that? hardly... don't think it ever can.... i can say that i'm tired of world, or it's annoying and hateful, but i can't say that the world hates people...
I think that funclub is done for today and tomorrow, I just stopped looking for something and i live on what i feel in the moment - i'm happy, i will be jumping around, sadly - it looks fake, but hey, what can i do, if it's a way of self exprеssion? whatever... i can't concentrate my powers on something unreal, I'd rather be there for something else... I was in love, but i never experienced hate... no, it's a strong world...
It's hard to be lonely, but it's all that i've got, so i should enjoy it, because it really is all that i've got... i mean, lonely, not like without friends, but more like without a lover, different type of love i guess... many people struggle, alone, but they live, nothing happens to them, they just do live... so will i live, so will i move on, and so will i love, but some other day, not today, because there is almost nothing left of today...
<3 KO
Today i saw my friends being different, seems like they can't see me, and avoid me... but it's just a matter of time... i know for sure i'm over the girl, yeah, because of same emptiness, and i'm happy that she's happy... she gets angry and i'm woried, if it's about me, but it's not... i hope not... even if it is, the time will change everything... the world doesn't hate people, did i ever said that? hardly... don't think it ever can.... i can say that i'm tired of world, or it's annoying and hateful, but i can't say that the world hates people...
I think that funclub is done for today and tomorrow, I just stopped looking for something and i live on what i feel in the moment - i'm happy, i will be jumping around, sadly - it looks fake, but hey, what can i do, if it's a way of self exprеssion? whatever... i can't concentrate my powers on something unreal, I'd rather be there for something else... I was in love, but i never experienced hate... no, it's a strong world...
It's hard to be lonely, but it's all that i've got, so i should enjoy it, because it really is all that i've got... i mean, lonely, not like without friends, but more like without a lover, different type of love i guess... many people struggle, alone, but they live, nothing happens to them, they just do live... so will i live, so will i move on, and so will i love, but some other day, not today, because there is almost nothing left of today...
<3 KO
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09.02.2007 в 05:51-
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09.02.2007 в 07:41-
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09.02.2007 в 07:54in brainstorm hmmm, interesting, why is that?
<3 KO
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09.02.2007 в 08:01only in english.
are you not russian?
and what is it pickupper?
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09.02.2007 в 08:06Pickupper - guru... perci... asi soblazneniya... seduction artists... =D
Ko
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09.02.2007 в 08:11Sam seychas v Bostone nahozhus'.
A, eshe, chto takoe "ko" i prichem tut lol? bred.
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09.02.2007 в 08:17kak tebe v bostone, kstati?
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09.02.2007 в 17:00ochen' evropeyskiy.
pravd domoy hochetsya...