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I'm almost crying... such a distrust, disrespect and offense... they have plans for me, they have hopes, but why don't they just set me free... to do whatever i want to? why not? I wish i was an animal, an ant, so i would die, and i wouldn't even think of it... i wouldn't care - ant doesn't have enough brain power to care... fuck... i need an escape... duh... i've tried 1 cigarette in my entire fucking life, and they consider me addicted already... I had one bottle of beer in my entire life, and i'm an alcoholic for them already! stupid... how can they think that:"oh no, he have tried some taste in life - he must be lost forever alread" how can they say: "think of it" if they don't let me think... did they ever think that it was their fault that i had that beer or smoked that cigatrette... and it was... yes, because i find my escape from them... just like a rebel... i want a lot, my dreams come true, but not in the way i want... in the way everyone else planed... i need an escape... i need a job... i just need something to survive... something to develop myself into a person i want to be... FUCK! i mean why? they don't believe me, they don't trust me, but they know that i'm right... they know that i am... what do we live for? to get money, to make plans? what for - you can die every other moment, and no one will remember your plans for future, someone will get the insurance money, and that's gonna be it... what happened to people, where is carpe diem idea... where is trust... where is real hope, lost between two lagest deserts of the world... or sank in the indian ocean... dissosiated in iced wated, absobt by diet coke... where is fire of love, all i can see is thousands of burned people, who lost their hope, lost their love, they lost their lifes, they exist for pleasure that they will never reach... why even the closest to me person does it... who to trust, if no one wants to trust you?
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