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i'm not amused, not happy, not sad either... just indifferent i guess... trying to understand myself... yesterday someone called me and asked for advise... i gave it to the person... i don't know why, seems useless... and maybe not fair... like... i just want to get some support and stuff... maybe some care... but instead i see just lies... tired of it... want to run away somewhere to New York or San Francisco, so my parents will never find me, and no one else... they will think i'm dead and maybe i'll be, but what is the point of living when no one wants to listen to you, or when you don't want to talk to someone, because there is nothing to say, nothing to think of any longer... just college stuff that has to amuse you a moment after moment... love is gone, hate is gone to... there is nothing left... nothing and i don't want anything, cuz i can have everything... sux... i......................................................
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02.03.2007 в 21:44Уйти в горы, построить себе хижину и жить там. Что бы больше меня никто не видел, и я никого не видела. Сказать родным, что уехала со своим парнем в другую страну или что-нибудь в этом духе...
Но потом поняла, что на улице зима сейчас, и я просто не выдержу...
А потом чувства и подобные мысли как-то сами собой улеглись.... Хотя было бы лето, ушла бы уже.